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Thursday, December 15th, 2005
Thursday December 15th, 2005 2:03pm	And so im updating... Im here at school, where all we have done all day is play Euchre. Its been fun. I cant wait until i graduate, and i never was excited, but i went to my teachers graduation from GVSU and now im excited for mine. Well, there was like 750 people that graduated Saturday, and yeah, we were all hooting and hollering and it was a blast. Soo...this January, im taking classes at MCC, starting the fourth, and now that i have all my books and my tuition paid of and that i know for a fact that i have USED books, im very very happy. And a little bit excited, and nervous, but then again i have the faitful Reagan to help me with my math homework. My mom is a little bit..well, alot a bit, pissed off that i am going to college right now, because she wants me to sit home and watch my little brother, and sit in Holton for the rest of my flippin life, and you could think, just for once, that she may be a little bit happy for me. But accorse not. Ahh.. anyways i love New Horizons, its a big blast and a half, and i love working where i work, theres a bunch of homosexual people and stoners. And i love it.Im hanging out with Joe and coco and Aj tonight, and i have no clue what we are doing, but eh it will be fun. Tuesdauy we watched finding nemo, and i have the whole ***theres no eating here tonight, theres no eating here tonight, your on a diet*** stuck in my head or **lucky fin** (I LOVE YOU COCO) anyhew, i prolly should be doing some thing produktive, as in...playing cards, but eh... I may update more later................................................................................................................ Current Mood: blah Current Music: smile empty soul on someone elses head fones
Wednesday, November 2nd, 2005
Wednesday November 2nd, 2005 6:46am	hey So its been a long while since ive been on here....everyone say hi to me :) Current Mood: content Current Music: death cab for cutie
Wednesday, October 5th, 2005
Wednesday October 5th, 2005 1:55pm	goin' crazy? yeah me too... I feel completely alone right now..and i dont know why..i wish i was good enough to be with him, i wish he wanted me around, i wish he loved me like he used to. I know im not pretty, im not cool, im not fun to be around...I just wish things would be the way they used to be.I know i messed up alot...and i know i ruined the one thing i actually liked.. i just have alot i would love to tell him right now...alot of things i need to ask him, things that are really important..well, they are to me..ive been holding these few things in for a long time...and every time i would go and see him, to tell him these things..i couldnt do it..something just didnt seem right..and the questions i have to ask him...i really need to know for myself..i cant let it go, until i do... i mean, ive tried to let it go, its just not working...because the whole "closure in my head" yeah..i need that...and it doesnt bug me all the time..if it was,i wouldnt be getting good grades...or i be doing any of the things i am doing...ya know.What am i saying...im driving myself insane..i dont work that many hours, or have anything to do...so im just sitting here thinking about everything, i shouldnt be thinking about... ya know how a normal single girl my age would be sitting here thinking about her next boyfriend..well, i sit here and think about the things i did wrong.How can i do this to myself? I know what i have to do..And im going to do it...i just have to get the balls to do it..and im scared to do..it cuz im scarred to hear, what is, probably the truth..but it will make me feel better..once i get everything off my chest.. This song...just explains the way i feel... Artist: Mariah Carey Album: The Emancipation of Mimi Year: 2005 Title: Mine Again I remember when you used to be mine Way back when I was too naive to love you right But now, if I only had the opportunity I would do anything Because my heart still believes [chorus] Maybe you could be mine again Maybe we could make that dream for real Like way back then When love was yours and mine Maybe we could bring it back to life It's irrelevant to dwell on the past (yeah) I'm accountable for what went bad And I mean that But I keep on praying for another chance Just to have you back Cause I've grown And I know how to be your everything [chorus] Maybe you could be mine again Maybe we could make that dream for real Like way back then When love was yours and mine Maybe we could bring it back to life, life No, no it ain't over yet I just can't accept the possibility We weren't made for each other's arms I know you're my destiny We can't erase what was meant to be Part of you and part of me If we try one more time Maybe somehow we'll survive [chorus] Maybe you could be mine again Maybe we could make that dream for real Like way back then When love was yours and mine Boy, maybe we could bring it back Maybe we could bring it back Maybe we could bring it back to life Maybe you could be mine I just really wish i could get another chance. Current Mood: confused
Sunday, October 2nd, 2005
Sunday October 2nd, 2005 11:12pm	guess what guys! 1. Im a bitch... 2. Craig is dead... 3. My toe hurts.. 4. My toe hurts really really bad.. 5. I hate beds that hurt my toes.. 6. Im a bitch. Not much to say...just the obvious
Saturday, October 1st, 2005
Saturday October 1st, 2005 10:06pm	Hey, how is everyone doing today..im good..i guess..kinda tired...Me, Krystle, Nikki, John, and Nikkis sister went to the movies..seen the exorcism of emily rose.. it was pretty good...kinda flippin freaky...tonight was the homecoming and me and nikki were going to go...but i really wasnt wanting to go..i feel like crap for some reason..i dont know why..im kinda tired..some i gunna go watch the ring two...prolly be online for a while really bored.
Thursday, September 29th, 2005
Thursday September 29th, 2005 9:39pm	grr... well..today i hung out with nikki and aj..not at the same time or anything..i just chilled with both of them, ya know..that sort of thing...lol...i was hoping to see coco...but i guess her and joe were sleeping and i wasnt going to wake em'..(so hint hint coco..i need to talk to you bad...like super bad...) anyways...yeah.Im going to go to bed...but all i really had to say was COCO..I NEED TO TALK TO YOU.. lol.
Tuesday, September 27th, 2005
Tuesday September 27th, 2005 10:05pm	Random..... 1. Do you have a crush on someone: Oh, just a little 2. What book are you reading now: Jack and Jill By James Patterson 3. Worst feeling in the world: Unloved 4. Future KIDS names: Leah Noelle or Chloe Niquole Caeleb James 5. Sleep with a stuffed animal: Yesh, the teddy bear Aj bought me and the bear ive had since i was born 6. What's under your bed: magazines, pictures, books, blankets 7. Favorite sports to watch: Hockey 8. Location: Holton 9. Piercing/Tattoos:six lower, 4 upper, belly button, tounge 10. Do you drink: sometimes 11. What are you most scared of right now: Never getting him back 12.Where do you want to get married: In a church 13. Who do you really hate: AD 14. Do you have a job: McDonalds 15. Do you like being around people: People who hit on you when you are emotional and crying 16. Have you ever liked someone you had no chance with: I think im going through that right now 17. Have you ever cried: More than ever 18. Are you lonely right now: No..just got off the phone with Aj 19. Song that's stuck in your head a lot: you dont look a day over fast cars and freedom 21. Played strip poker: not after i heard about amanda...eeeeeewww. 22. Gotten beaten up: hit my nose on Ajs car door...ripped my pants when me and danielle carried the bed up the stairs..tripped over myself and said oh shit at school. 23. Done an all-nighter: a couple 24. Been on radio/TV: no 25. Been in a mosh-pit: yes 26. Do you have any gay/lesbian friends: yeah 27. Was this worth your time: it wasted my time
Tuesday September 27th, 2005 2:49pm	Today is actually a really good day..i seen one of my friends that i havent seen since april..because he went into the army...i dont know..its just really different now.. like i dont really care about that anymore..like i dont want to go and party..i just want to chill..but i dont want to go out and find a whole bunch of new friends...or hang out with people i go to skool with..i just want to hang out with all the peeps i always hang out with..we have alot of fun...NE ways.. school was really fun today...we went and got pizza from spankys...it was really good..the breadsticks are so yummy..anyways ive got homework to do..so ima go...LuV Jenn Current Mood: happy Current Music: Colors- crossfade
Monday, September 26th, 2005
Monday September 26th, 2005 7:12am	Go away..please??? Yesterday i had to be to work at 530...it sucked!and i got out of work at two.. and went and hung out with Aj..I got like the worst migrane in the world..it was making my eyes water and everything..and with every little flash of light...and i dont know why... but i felt like i was going to throw up...i just felt like shit all around.. I watched Aj play his game..and i was trying to help..although i know i wasnt much help... and then we went and watched Craig play Zombies ate my neighbors.. and thats where my head really started to hurt..Im not sure why..and we watched larry the cable guy..which is an awsome movie..and we were watching the last samari..but i fell asleep.. and when i woke up it was 1027 and i thought i was late because i had to leave at 1030..and they were all into the movie...and i really wanted to apoligize for the way i was acting...but Aj kinda hit it right when he said "Its just that time of the month"...but i think im going to call and apoligize today..and see if maybe he might want to go to the mall or do something like that..I dont know, but i gotta go to school...Later...Jenn
Saturday, September 24th, 2005
Saturday September 24th, 2005 8:27am	bunch'o flippin rambling Hey.here i am.rambling away.Im sick and tired of sitting here doing absolutely nothing. Yesterday i went and hung out with Aj for a little while..until i went to work...and then i thought i was going to get out at ten but i got out at eight instead. which really sucks because im sure if i knew i got out at eight i would have been able to hang out with him when i got out of work..oh well..Hopefully we will get to hang out today.Besides, there is something that I have been holding onto for a while now that i would really like to show him..yesterday was a lot of fun... although i was really sad and dissappointed that he didnt want me to come over after i got out of work..i just thought it wouldve been nice to hang out some more. And another thing.. the thing coco posted in her journal..is so true..and Aj was all of those..and it makes me really sad.
Thursday, September 22nd, 2005
Thursday September 22nd, 2005 2:59pm	its just one of those days hey there homies..well, today started off really shitty..mom got some yellow paint all over my car..like the kinda on the pumps at the gas station so i have a huge ass yellow stripe down the side of my car..and i want to see about doing something tonight because i dont have skool tommorow...so yeah..but i dont know if the apartment phone is turned on or if Ajs cell is turned on..grr..coco..if you know, get ahold of me k? and lemme know...bluhh...today just royally sucked monkeys nuts..
Wednesday, September 21st, 2005
Wednesday September 21st, 2005 9:37pm	... well..time going to go crazy..my stomach hurts really flippin bad... i just found out im not trusted by one of my best friends..and that really hurts because hes like my big brother..well, he is my big brother...and i love him like my brother...i cant wait till tommorow..and then I dont have skool friday...so maybe (crosses fingers) things will go the way i would like them too...cuz this is getting flippin boring..so yeah.. im gunna goo.......<3 the koolaid
Tuesday, September 20th, 2005
Tuesday September 20th, 2005 4:53pm	if this isnt just totally flippin true Your LJ Surreal Life Cast LiveJournal Username age do you watch The Surreal Life yesno would you wanna live in the same house as your LJ friends?? has no problem with being in the nude... all the time: ballsorswabs loves them some alcohol... all the time: osiris187 loves them some inanimate objects. like piratey potatos!! ... all the time: not2b_used has homosexual tendencies: usmcdragonfang pissed everyone off by whining about having their own room... and got it: missinher2004 is actually a midget (oh c'mon!! this quiz was screaming for it!!) dlk2007 is always always ALWAYS crying about something (haha pussy... *points and laughs*) squirrelkick This Fun Quiz created by Valerie at BlogQuiz.Net Free ringtones and wallpapers! Click here!
Tuesday September 20th, 2005 4:16pm	bluhhh dammit.What do you do when you want to make choices for YOUR OWN LIFE..but you really want to wait and talk it over with someone WHO MEANS THE WORLD TO YOU... and you want to figure out the more important situation first...but this one thing THAT YOU REALLY WANT TO DO..you are really excited about..and you want this other person to be excited too...for you..and for them..because maybe they would want to be with you..and when you leave maybe they would miss you...and it will be a whole long time before they would see you again..and you would want to know if they would wait for you..or if they would find someone else...someone better than you...or maybe they just dont want you at all..and dont you wish that parents would just stop..and leave you alone..and dont you wish you could just tell that person everything...everything you feel without being so scared you cry because you regret NOT saying anything...because what if they said everything would be okay...and you missed out because you were to scared to tell them how the hell you felt...and it hurts..and its confusing.and dont you wish you would stop writing them really long letters telling them how you felt and then being to scared to show it to them...because you dont know what they would say..and when you get back to your car you get so upset with yourself you cry because you were all excited to give those letters to that person and so excited to see if it makes things any better..and you chickened out..just like you do with everything else...and there you go regretting something else...and it makes you misrible..because you are holding on to your secret and its killing you...and you just want to let it out but you cant because you, once again are scared...and right now all u need is to hear him tell you that he loves you..even though you know he does...but it would make all your problems go away....and make all your worries vanish...all with those three little words... oh thats how you feel???? me too... if you read this...i love you... Current Mood: crushed
Monday, September 19th, 2005
Monday September 19th, 2005 11:30pm	ehhh well, today..was today..and it was very long..school sucked ass like it usually did...and then after skool i had a meeting at work, and then i got everyone food from mcdonalds...and they forgot danielles food...thank god she wasnt upset...lol.. and we went and did a bunch of running...like to the post office and to the old apartment complex and to verizon..it was purdy cool...except for they were picking on me hard core :(...it was crazy...and then we went back to the apartment and just chilled which was cool because i had like the worst cramps in the world...and i kinda fell asleep while he was playing the game...i seriously havent had cramps like those in months.. i dont know...its crazy.........hopefully next weekend will be as good as last weekend... maybe no drama this time...lol..yeah right...like we say..."you can look but you cant touch....and if you touch it ima start some drama and you dont want no drama drama..." lol, thats mine and lukes little saying...cuz Aj kinda dubbed him my bodyguard...lol...ima go to sleep now...skool tommorow..and a tummy ache.. Current Mood: pissed off
Friday, September 16th, 2005
Friday September 16th, 2005 11:06pm	<3If i could relive those days...<3 Ok...today was a busy day..lol...ok..Me, Aj, Ajs Mommy and Daddy, Lucas, Craig, and Danielle, craigs mom, dad, and brother......all helped the guys move into there new place..it was alot of fun..and their new apartment is the greatest...and its right down the road from Carissa's Apartment..and Chases...its really nice..We are all hanging out tommorow...maybe even Nikki...I dont know, im not really even in the mood to see Brandon..he makes me so fucking mad sometimes...everyone really....but i dont know...its depressing...i finally got someone to yeah...and she was all excited and bought really flippen cute clothes to impress him (or something like that)...i dont know, its okay, if she doesnt stay though...because that means brandon wont be there,but i love my nikki..shes like the greatest best friend ever,she is always there for me..and she always helps me out...and i love her oh so much...in a purely platonic way :)..i dont know...tonight was just really good...everyone..well, most everyone for the most part got along tonight...even me and Danielle...i really like it that we are all getting along...and i hope it stays that way..I was so excited about the new place and it wasnt even mine! I wonder if we are playing Halo 2 tommorow...that would be alot of fun..i would even put up with...someone there that i dont like too much. ohh... and here is a song..that i really like so take it biotch: "Photograph" Look at this photograph Everytime I do it makes me laugh How did our eyes get so red And what the hell is on Joey's head And this is where I grew up I think the present owner fixed it up I never knew we'd ever went without The second floor is hard for sneaking out And this is where I went to school Most of the time had better things to do Criminal record says I broke in twice I must have done it half a dozen times I wonder if It's too late Should i go back and try to graduate Life's better now then it was back then If I was them I wouldn't let me in Oh oh oh Oh god I Every memory of looking out the back door I had the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor It's hard to say it, time to say it Goodbye, goodbye Every memory of walking out the front door I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for It's hard to say it, time to say it Goodbye, goodbye Remember the old arcade Blew every dollar that we ever made The cops hated us hangin' out They say somebody went and burned it down We used to listen to the radio And sing along with every song we know We said someday we'd find out how if feels To sing to more than just the steering wheel Kim's the first girl I kissed I was so nervous that I nearly missed She's had a couple of kids since then I haven't seen her since god knows when Oh oh oh Oh god I Every memory of looking out the back door I had the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor It's hard to say it, time to say it Goodbye, goodbye Every memory of walking out the front door I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for It's hard to say it, time to say it Goodbye, goodbye I miss that town I miss the faces You can't erase You can't replace it I miss it now I can't believe it So hard to stay So hard to leave it If I could I relive those days I know the one thing that would never change Every memory of looking out the back door I had the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor It's hard to say it, time to say it Goodbye, goodbye Every memory of walking out the front door I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for It's hard to say it, time to say it Goodbye, goodbye Look at this photograph Everytime I do it makes me laugh Everytime I do it makes me I <3 you guys :) Jenn<3 Current Mood: cheerful Current Music: Nickelback- Photograph
Friday September 16th, 2005 11:49am	no skool for me today.... well, i havent done to much today...cuz i didnt have skool cuz its friday...so i just woke up a little bit ago..and tonight im going to go and help the guys move there shit...i dont really know how much help i will be,considering there is going to be lots of people there.I got an A on my geometry test...i have never gotten an A on a geometry test...a math test period...i was so proud of myself...last night was so..blah.. I was going to hang out with Aj,and then i didnt end up doing that... i just stopped by to get Nikkis id, but i couldnt because Brandon is a dumb asssss. and they decieded they wanted to write all over me...and then i left and me and Nikki and Jeni went to the mall and hung out..and then i fell asleep...cuz it sucked...and today im just really fucking bored..and hungry...but im gunna go now... <3 Jenn Ps...papa johns sounds sooo yummy
Tuesday, September 13th, 2005
Tuesday September 13th, 2005 11:16am	Kicked out of school :) So...i got kicked out of school..already....lol for saying shit,woopdie fucking doo.. but its a nice day off lol.
Tuesday September 13th, 2005 11:10am	1. I've never been in therapy but I have wanted to be. 2. I've cried over accidentally killing a bug. 3. My favorite non vocal instrement is the harp. 4. I think Andy Milonakis is adorable. 5. I've run into a wall or door intentionally. 6. I've been hit on the head by a ladder. 7. I've been a third-baseman. 8. I have felt guilty for being heterosexual. 9. I used to plan that I would judge romantic interests on what kind of vehicle of transportation they had, so that I would be different from others (who would obviously choose based on personality). 10. I wanted to be 16 when I was 7. 11. I felt 32 when I was 15. 12. I really really really hate carrots. 13. I want to get married. 14. I've spent an unnatural amount of time thinking about how inconvenient standard bandaids are for cuts on finger joints and the palm. 15. I enjoy walking "like a model." 16. I think Ben Stiller movies are just basically Murphy's Law in action constantly. 17. I thought that Jerry O'Connell and Tom Cruise looked really similar. 18. I still think that Jerry O'Connell and Tom Cruise look really similar. 19. I've had crushes on fictional characters. 20. I've never smoked anything. 21. My dad doesn't drink (alcohol). 22. I've shouting the phrase "No mating" 23. My daydreams are more like planning than just vacation. 24. I daydream entire conversations I want to have with someone. 25. My jealous streak is a proverbial mile wide, but only a centimeter deep. 26. I hate any shoe that has a heel taller than 2-and-a-half-inches. 27. I'm short. 28. I'm only photogenic if I'm the photographer. 29. If it were up to me, we would not have feet - we'd just float around and our bodies would just fade below our ankles. 30. I have never had just a plain, brown teddy bear. 31. I have been in the girl scouts. 32. Most of my friends are younger than I am. 33. I'm of legal driving age but do not have a license. 34. I'm of legal driving age and do not even have a PERMIT. 35. It has boggled my mind that anyone could be named "Apl." 36. I love stuffing (the food, just so you know). 37. My favourite flower is a sunflower. 38. I love bread. 39. I would eat wheat bread if it didn't look like it had a life of its own. 40. I have considered Yale as a prospective college. 41. I want to join a nudists' colony for a week just to see how they handle certain conditions. 42. It seems like an overwhelming percentage of my friends enjoy anime
Sunday, September 11th, 2005
Sunday September 11th, 2005 9:59pm	Your only cool if you pee your pants... Well, if thats the truth than im Miles Davis...teehee...Lol, anyways, i love that movie..ehh..Billy Madison..anyways...im really glad we had a break in skool...i hate getting up early..lol, i got up early this weekend too though..we went to oakridge football game..at North Muskegon..they kicked some ass...and then we went back to the HS and sat on top of the cars...and listened to pitbull..and cotton eye joe and stuff. that was alot of fun...i dont know why...but it was alot of fun...It was Me, Aj, Joe Joe, Lucas, and Brandon..and we were waiting for Coco...lol..they were all sitting on the tops of the cars...and i was standing up cuz i was to short to get to the top...so lucas and aj had to pull me up and i had to use Joe joes feet as stairs..lol..it was hillarious...and then we went back to the apartment and waited for Joe to get some food..and we decieded i could stay there so i stayed and we went tubbing the next day...and i didnt go to work...and i got sunburnt super bad...and it hurts..anyways, that was my weekend.<3 but there is school tommorow, so im going to go... <3 Jenn Current Mood: good Current Music: freaky- Pitbull